Ok to see where i’m coming from with this post i’ll kick off with:
posted thread: 20th jun 12 to forum/general discussion/ thread by token post by HB (animalbeing)
link to thread http://www.aneros.com/forum/showthread.php?14018-brainsync-com
THREAD TOPIC: BRAINSYNC.COM
token:
hi all
after reading a few posts on the forum recently i have been hearing more and more about brainsync and kelly howell so i decided to give it a try i
downloaded Awakening Kundalini and i have to say it was amazing i didnt think thing could get any better but this took me to a whole new level
and i would recommend it to anyone and i was just wondering if anyone could recommend any other sessions/programs that work well with
aneros thanks in advance
token
forum_jedi:
What are the best tone frequencies to work with for aneros sessions? Alpha, beta, theta…?
HB (animalbeing):
theta i think… and a good recomendation is kelly howells the secret, it’s an hour long and i listened to it for the first time last night, and only
about 20 mins of it due to ear bud issues. actually i should say it was this morning i listened since i’ve been sleeping during the day… and i’ve
been asleep from about 6’30 til 18:00, yup i needed some sleep, i’ve not been awake long, counting in sleeping/dreaming sporadic awake
periods, aware sleep periods, lucid dreaming periods and awake periods, its been a rollercoaster, both good and emotionally bad, but only
because i have become aware of an emotional blockage that need dealing with, very good transformation stuff. amazing sensations came up.
even just starting up and listening to the cd… thats the quickest and least effort i’ve ever put into getting into a meditative state.
HB
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So. My english teacher always said never start writing a piece with the word so, (sticks tongue out.) Gooo!! I’m a rebel.
Let me now recount to you what actually happened in story format. It’s pretty cool. It includes the best things… romance, intrigue, sex and
death. I may just end up writing a new best seller, (jokes.)
I laid down at about 6:30 this morning. I’m unaware of the exact time. I’d just pressed play on my laptop for Kelly Howells: The Secret .mp3. I
hear a rushing sound with an underlying tone… this includes theta wave recorded to sympathetically resonate your body and mind with this
wave. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neural_oscillation… american womans voice, not too distracting, (I am English.) She tells me truths in my ears
with a soothing voice. I am calm and relaxed.
Not 30 seconds in and I am floating, expanded in a state that can be reached during meditation. This was through no effort on my part. I can
feel the familiar pleasurable experience of energy moving in and through me. I don’t focus or listen to the words, just letting them wash over me
like waves to a beach. The track is designed for you to be able to fall asleep to. If you are asleep the better. Let me just say i was very surprised
at the affectiveness of this CD.
At some point I was aware that I was not going to be able to fall asleep and tried to figure the problem… not me i’m tired and ready. Then it
occured to me the harsh sibilances from the spoken words were very prominent, due to my earphones having a peak in the 2-8k range. Nothing
to do with the recorded track which is of very high quality. I doubted equalizing it through my media player would help much. Would just screw
the track up due to having little control with only a few bands of eq. so i decided to call it off and stopped it playing.I think I may need some new
buds.
I fell asleep with the words rumbling around in my head and seemingly reaching the deeper reccesses of my mind, very much still floating and
feeling genuinly at peace.
Now I remember having some ‘awake’ like periods, but still very much asleep. Still floating. Some unconsciousness and then I entered a vivid
dream… a dream full of possibilities and laced with positivity and healing. Somewhere I was aware I was dreaming, but very much lending and
letting go to the experience of whatever happens. I didn’t hear so much that this was different than any other of my usual dreams more a very
quiet whisper.
I was with a girl. This girl really fancied me and I her. I remember us getting a bit hot together (ok i used my tongue in trooper fashion.) We had
some sort of a relationship going and we talked. It turned out she had to go away to college or something like that and her parents wanted to
keep us apart. We knew we wouldn’t be seeing eachother for a while. So I proposed a solution. I would move away. Where I would be moving
to happend to be my origanal home town, i was born and raised there, most of my family are there. She would skip out and move there with me
after a year… all so we could get away from an impossible situation.
Next scene i’m walking through a railway station and it’s very big. Not at all like the one in my town. It had high cielings and red bricked walls
everywhere and some very cold white walls with corridors a plenty and big stairs and routes to different platforms. Lots to take in, a feast for the
eyes. People sporadicaly placed coming and going about in the bustle of thier everyday existence. The air around me feels charged and I can
feel the motion of life. I buy my tickets with what money I have. Which is just enough for the ticket. I have nothing with me. I’m giving up every
material possesion for this ticket. I was still sure I was going to get on this train to move away.
I walk around for a little while soaking in the atmosphere. I then go for my train and take a walk round the stairs. Finally my train pulls up. I walk
right up to the train entrance door, but something stops me from getting on. I make a mental check and thoughts rush into my head. I will have
no where to sleep, I have family but none i could stay with. This doesn’t worry me too much to stop me getting on. I will have no money, getting
work will not be an easy endeavor. This doesn’t worry me too much to stop me getting on. When a man needs to be resourceful, even on the
streets he can be, been there before I know how it feels. I have no clothes and no support network. i have no forseeable way to get acces to
anything i need straightaway. I have no phone. Still this does not worry me too much to stop me getting on. I thought I was going to get on this
train.
Then I ask myself the reason i’m getting on this train. The first thought that popped into my head was for love. Something didn’t feel right
immediatly… I was lying to myself. I thought about it again and mentally checked myself to be brutally honest. This would affect my life after all. I
enjoyed the sexual contact. The banter and fun of being with her, but i didn’t love her. I didn’t even know her. The real reason for wanting to get
on this train the became apparent as if exploding from the mist of my negative emotional influenced thought patterns. It was just because
because I needed to be with somebody because I wasn’t truly content.
I realised I have everything i’ll ever need. I was truly content… turning away from the train was the easiest decision. We may never be together,
but it didn’t matter. I was happy and floating again, finding out i was powerfull beyond my illusory limititions. Freeing myself from attachment.
I’m walking around again now with no particular place to go. I suppose maybe somewhere to sit and take everything in, enjoying the vivid
imagary around me as i’m going along.
I see one guy walking towards me as i’m going along. He starts calling me horrible names and generally being a bully, jibing at something that I
usualy have a sensitivity about, but didn’t at this point as there was no need. I surprised myself not by what i did, because i think i would do it
nowadays anyway, but because i was doing it from a place of mental clarity. I naivly thought before that the appropriate response would be just
to walk on. Instead I told him “fuck off you prick!” and he said “ok dude chill.”
Then I walked around some more in a chilled out state. I had a feeling in the reccesses of my mind something big with a capital B was coming
though i wasn’t all that aware of it at the time. The scenery around this station in the places I walked started changing. Where once before it
was red brick, white walls and wide spaces. It was now corridors much smaller with lots of silver chome metal and glass allowing you to see into
the next rooms or corridors. All vivid. I could still even recall every space if I felt like it.
There was this one room I felt like I should walk into. It had a tiolet in it. I closed the glass doors behind me. It was like a double door. It was
really quite small. I could touch either wall at arm span. It was in a sqaure like configuration, taller that it was wide. It had metal grill floors. All the
walls were glass and I could see down right through the metal grills into the bustle way below me that was something like the station foyer. The
glass walls were held in place by yet more metal and split down the middle by metal.I remained there, not knowing why I should be there, but I
was still in the state that I was going to give over willingly to whatever happend and accept it.
The room started moving, it had detached from the platform from where it once was. I looked up and the room was being moved laterally. From
the ceiling there was an metal arm attached to a kind of pulley system with big cables. At this point my psyches pushing me further into this
dream state and i’m becoming less lucid, but the vivid intensity still remains.
This lift mechanism went all around this station that had now become a sort of complex of glass and metal. It smashed a vending machine to
pieces and through a glass wall. I was then in a very big wide open space. I was very high up. I was moving out towards the middle of this place,
don’t know what it was, but it was very vivid.
I looked up and saw thick black electrical cables. The arm was going to go straight through them. It meant i was going to die. I’d lost my lucidity
now. Things were getting intense, to my conscoius mind this was a real happening. I was getting closer. There was no way this was going to
stop. I was going to die.
I let it sink in. I would have elecricity running through my body untill it could sustian my inner essence no more. this was going to be an extremely
intense experience.
I spread my arms out to grab hold of the metal on either side of me, put my head down and my legs together. It seemed natural. It reminded me
of a person who was once in the same position. Time seemed to go on forever, but it was in reality only a short time.
Then I heard the cables gathering tension on the arm and then building. Inside me I seemed to have a reflection of this. I heard cables snap
one by one and then a pause of silence hanging in the air so viscerally one might think you would have been able to touch it. Just when i
thought i was out of the woods. That i might not be electrocuted at all. IT HIT ME! The intensity did not not disapoint. I was having a CRAZY
MASSIVE current running through my whole body. In my minds eye the whole of my insides were melting. I could feel all my muscles
contracting in agony. My conciousness was on fire, it was being burned away. The ashes were to float away to be forgotten forever. I could feel
it dimming. The extreme sensation around my whole body was taking my conscoiusness over, it was all i could be aware of. Nothing meant
anything any more. Only this. It continued.
I was no more.
I then came to. I think i’m dead at first. My eyes open and I see the same scene before me and confusion sets in. I’m still alive after that? How
could this be? I’m HIT AGAIN! I think for sure i’m going to decease this time. I’m hit with the same intensity. I float away again in this and again
i’m alive. Now infact i’m very alive! I realise that this is a dream again, but this doesn’t get rid of the confusion. It changes quality. If i’m dreaming
how is it that i’m feeling such wildly unimaginable sensations? Pain in dreams even when percieved from something like getting your arm
chopped off is only a poor ghost sensation compared with real pain.
Then things start falling into place, I was right about what I thought, that this wasn’t possible in a dream, (pain to this magnitude.) Then I
realised that it didn’t feel classicly painfull at all. There was only one other thing that could it could be to cause suc an explosive rush of
sensation to a herculean strenghth such as this… orgasmic energy and it was real. It didn’t matter whether I was awake or not. This was as real
as it could get.
I must have been hit about four times after that and revelled in it before I woke up feeling extremely happy. It really didn’t matter that i was asleep for this, i would
be just as happy having an MMO session asleep as i would be awake.
One of my first thoughts is that I had to write this experience down and so have.
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Coming from the Buddhist perspective, that i agree with. Attachment brings suffering. When you die you cannot take anything with you. You
have to leave absolutely everything behind. Thus if you attached you will suffer. Life and death are not two separate entities. If life is sex/mating
coming from even a Moleculer/Energy Shiva/Shakti level then it is also death. The birth of one state for the death of another. They are more like
the same sides of one coin. If you want another perspective read upon quantum theory and shrodingers cat.
I am here now in my room writing this. I could die at any moment. If were to stay in my room for an hour and you were to suppose whether I was
alive or dead in an hours time. How could you tell? I could be said to be both alive and dead. Because I was born from sex I will also die, there
isn’t one without the other.
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Now we are out of the context of the story I feel I can expand a bit on it and put some of my thoughts down on the whole experience. That I
hope will lead other people to a deeper realisation of thier own nature. This will come in a later post.
I hope you enjoyed this.
Feel free to discuss any of this with me… HB